KIDS' DAY

Jayla was so excited to get mom a mothers day gift, then a month later we explained to her that it will be Fathers' Day soon.  We were going to get a gift for her daddy.  She exclaimed to me,"When is kids day mom?"

So now our new tradition in our is Kids Day in July.  The kids get to pick the activites and the treats that we have for that day.  They don't have to do their lessons, or make their beds and we get to tell them how special they are to us.




As I watch old Jayla and Jessa home videos I am shocked by how much I miss my own kids even with them watching those videos sitting beside me.  Those videos are almost too much for me to watch sometimes because I remember the immense joy that surrounded those baby days and that joy is almost always followed by intense nostalgia.  I never thought I would miss their little baby selves so much and that it would be so painful.  I will never get those little versions of my children back.

Perhaps it is because I am an adoptive mom and experiencing the struggles, pain, and then finally joy that surround the births of my children, or perhaps this is just what being a mother is all about.  However, I do believe that I love my children more because they are adopted.  That may sound strange for someone who has never had experience with adoption, but it is the truth.  I have learned early on in my life that the things that worth the most, are the things that are the most difficult.  I think this describes adoption perfectly.  We cannot know the joy without experiencing the sorrow.